So much can change

I have a bit of insomnia tonight, so I somehow ended up skimming through old posts I wrote here.
A lot of them are great insight into my spiritual journey with God over the past 2 years, and I’m glad I posted it.

The Lord has this incredible way of guiding our lives, he takes us through things that teach us in ways we can’t learn from words. It has to happen to us to understand the lesson.

If you had asked me 2 years ago if I would want to find a place to completely fit in, and feel like I had my life completely figured out, and then have it all swiped out from under my feet in a matter of days, I would have said no.

But if you ask me today, if I would like to go back to the life I had that was ‘figured out’, I would say no way.

God sees what is best for us, but we have tunnel vision. We only see what is directly in front of us, if it looks good, it must be good, so let me have it and keep it this way! But that isn’t how it works, God has the absolute best for us, we need to allow him to guide us through changes to get us to the place he wants us.

I am at a point in my life of contentment. It is something I really don’t feel I have ever had. It’s an amazing feeling really, not wanting anything more than what I have. Just happy resting in what God has given me, knowing that what I have now is the best God has for me, if I had more or less in my life, it would not be of God, and therefore not good.

For example, I have always struggled with a feeling of lonliness being single. I don’t feel that way now. How? I have come to realize through prayer and devotions that if God wanted me with someone, I would be with someone. The Lord provides my every need, so clearly at this point the Lord does not feel I need a partner. So I am at peace with that. Being single is a time to focus on God, I am learning to take advantage of this time to better serve the Lord, to put Jesus first and to let him be my husband until he allows the right man to step up and take that role.

I’ve learned to fully TRUST the Lord.

Through losing my position at my old church, and seeing what God had in store behind the turmoil, I saw first hand that God knows best. Everyday I see more and more of Gods grace in my life because I am obidient to Him.

I feel the world has more color when you walk through life with God. The closer I walk to Jesus, the better my soul feels. Circumstances may be hard, but my heart stays full of Gods love.

So.. what I wish to say to anyone reading this, is to trust God.

If you are going through something you don;t understand, you find yourself questioning why God is doing things the way he is… his timing, his methods, etc. Just realize that he has you right where he wants you at this very moment. If you listen for him, and seek his will, he will give you the best life has to offer.

How can you do this? How can you really be content, and really trust? It’s easier said than done right?

Pray.

Ask God to help you understand. Ask God to give you peace an contentment. Spend time in prayer with God often to calm your heart. I found that anytime I started thinking about a situation I was struggling with, instead of thinking to myself how to fix it, or how awful it was, I found I could use those thoughts as a tirgger to prayer. So when I got in those down moments, I spent time with the Lord. It not only made me feel much better about my present condition, but it also grew my relationship with my heavenly father.

I have never felt contentment like this before. I am completely trusting in God to provide for my needs, and it’s a much better feeling than self pity I assure you.

I hope you are trusting God. Because He more than anyone is worthy of your trust, and he will deliver you.

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After I wrote this it occured to me there is a really great song that fits perfectly with the message I am trying to convey. It is called ‘Trust You’ by Brandon Heath

“..It’s never easy changing direction, it’s so unnatural to loosen up my grip. Are you growing weary of all my good intentions? ‘Cause I know that you don’t work that way. I’m not gonna fight you anymore, not gonna try to lock the door. You took your life and gave me yours, there’s no reason why I shouldn’t trust you with mine..”

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