I’m sick so this is pointless

I’m sick and have nothing to do right now.. so blogging it is. Unfortunately, I just don’t have anything interesting to say right now.

I do however have a really sweet new pair of glasses coming in sometime this week.. and I’m pretty excited about that.

Can’t wait.. considering how picky I am about glasses I was kind of suprised I found a pair I liked that much. It took 2 stores to find them.. but it was worth the extra looking. It was those or some Ray Bans that I liked, but those we’re perfect.. they win. Plus, I’m a bit of a race fan if you haven’t noticed already, and there is a slight checkered pattern on the side.

I’m currently debating with myself whether or not to go in to work today.. I need the money, and to be honest that place fallas apart without me.. especiall with who is closing tonight.. if I don’t go, those 2 could potential ruin the business. Seriously. But on the other hand I’m still sick, and if I over do it today, I’ll be worse tomorrow and I have some stuff I have to do tomorrow. But money, and the fact that LifeWay could potentially crash and burn w/o me is kind of a motavating factor.

Oh.. and can i just say that doing absolutely nothing yesterday was the most amazing thing ever.  I felt so useless, but it was great! I just watched Discovery Channel all day long.. didn’t even get out of my pajamas. Being sick sucks, but it gave me my first day off in months. I’ll take the sickness for a day of actually getting to rest. Now.. I guess I better wallk around the house and see if I’m up for working 7 hours tonight.. ugh.. doesn’t feel like it right now.

God is Working

I am so often so focused on the immediate situation that I fail to acknowledge that God is in control and is taking care of things, even when it doesn’t seem like it. As a human being, I can only see the here and now, and the here and now is often troubling, and difficult. And I will pray and pray for change, and for God to move, completely unaware he already is, but I just am not seeing it.

I got a really cool reminded of that on Saturday, and I am so rediculously happy about how everything went down that morning.

I got up early so I could get balloons filled for work, when I got in my car and was putting the balloons in there, I set my phone on the roof of my car, and given I was really sleepy still, left it there. So I drove off onto Highway 50, and a block or so down the road, the phone flew off. I only know where because I heard a thumping.. I had no idea what it was and just kept driving. About 25 minutes later I realized what I had done and bolted to drive back down the road. Honestly, I didn’t know what to expect to find other than a shattered iPhone.. but I needed to go do it. I was praying the whole time begging God to work some crazy miracle to save my phone.. not that it was possible, my phone flew off my car at 50mph on one of the busiest streets in Orlando and it had been there for over a half hour now. I hit every stinking red light on the way there, and I was getting really frustrated. I didn’t think God was helping out very much.. I’m getting stopped every 4 seconds and my phone is still no where to be found. I couldn’t find it on the road, it was totally gone. Now what do I do? I drive through my work parking lot looking and it just wasn’t there. So now I have to face the fact I just lost my brand new phone that my mom paid for. Not something I was really excited about. I felt awful, and after a nice cry in my car, I headed back into work to call my mom. When she picked up the phone she said “Hey, I have your phone… some guy found it and I got it from him.”

What?

My phone is fine.. no scratches.. wasn’t stolen, wasn’t crushed, nothing. It was like it never happened. It was insane.

I felt like a moron for doubting God was in control of this. Yes, it was a phone, and in the grand scheme of things, who cares? But it was a reminder I desperately needed right now. A perfect picture of how God works. I am in my car freaking out ebcause my phone is missing, getting frustrated at the red lights, impatient wanting to get it back and fix it myself. But in the big picture, God had this guy find it right away, take it, go through the contacts and call to get it returned safely. All the while I am stuck in my small world of what I can see, which is that my phone is not with me.

I was freaked out for a while, but I am so glad all of it happened. I can stop freaking out about what I can see happening, because God sees so much more, and he is going to fix everything to work out in the end. I can rest easy knowing my God is looking out for me and working everything in a much bigger way than I can even imagine.

God is working even when it doesn’t look that way.