Archive for March, 2008

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Old Life/New Life

March 30, 2008

I feel like my life has changed drastically the past 2 months or so. Looking back it all gradually happened, but there has definitely been a lot of change.

My core group of friends I used to have I barely speak to anymore. I got a new job, left the old one, and have been getting a lot more involved with my church and the people there.

I go completely different places for fun and spend my time with different people.

I don’t know if I have changed, I’m me and I always have been, only people on the outside can really see the change, but I probably have, given my surroundings have been altered so much.

So, I became extremely aware of all the change today. Some stuff that’s happened the past few days sparked a lot of it.

Friday night me and some friends from work went to The Holy Land Experience for a show. While I was there I got a text message from one of my old friends. He out of nowhere wants to hang out. It was a little strange given we havent talked in a while, but I offered to do dinner next friday since Im going out anyway, he said it wasnt soon enough. I still don’t entirely get why.

Then last night I was downtown with Lizzie, and another old friend called me. Completely out of nowhere because I was pretty sure he didnt want anything to do with me. It was a bit bizarre. We wandered around the city and I told her the whole backstory on him and my other friends and all the drama and why we don’t really see each other anymore. And then somehow we nded up at my old job.

The 2 people working there we’re interesting. One was a guy that totally hates my guts, plain and simple enough, he doesn’t like that I am a Christian, and it bothered him to no end that I attempted to explain my faith to him one night. So that was awkward, he went in the back and ignored us the whole time. The other was George, and the last time I saw George we we’re at dinner with another friend and I ended up leaving I was so frustrated with the 2 guys. But it’s water under the bridge so we we’re fine.

I made Lizzie a shake and got myself some ice cream, and it definitely felt extremely weird being back there. I don’t think it’s been all that long since I’ve worked there, but it feels like a lifetime.

So today I was thinking about it, where I am now, and where I was 3 months ago.

It’s pretty intense, but in a good way. All of these changes have been for the better. I feel extremely blessed. When all of it was happening, I wouldn’t have said “this is a blessing” I would have said “this sucks”. I got fired, that sucked. But it got me away from that place, and 98% of the people that work there I really don’t like at all. My boss wasn’t sane, and I get to focus entirely at LifeWay, and it gives me a good schedule there, making more money.

When my friendships started to unravel, I would have said that sucked, but now I’ve been spending time with a lot of awesome people. And 95% of the people I’m around now are strong christians. I still love my old friends that aren’t christians, but I definitely feel like the relationships I’m in now are a lot healthier. Not to mention my old friends we’re high school kids, and now I spend most of my time with Lizzie, who is 23 and can actually go out whenever and isn’t afraid of downtown Orlando.

I don’t want to sound like my old life sucked, it didn’t, it was great, and when it started going away I was bummed. That’s weak, I was devastated. But God replaced it all with bigger and better things. It makes me excited for every day. What does God have up his sleeve now? It’s just awesome.

Oh, and on a seperate note, Friday night, everyone should go to urban Flatts in Winter Park and go support Mark & James. Me and Lizzie are going to feel really bad if we are the only people there. Again. It was a nice night but we want them to have some support other than the wasted guy at the bar telling them to sing something up tempo because they were “dragging down the vibe”.

So come out friday night, it’s a returant, so come eat dinner, or have a drink, or just sit around and listen to them.

<3

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True Love

March 23, 2008

This song was extremely moving the first time I heard it. It is very Easter, so I am posting it.

Come close listen to the story

About a love more faithful than the morning

The father gave his only son just to save us

The earth was shaking in the dark

All creation felt the fathers broken heart

Tears we’re filling heavens eyes

The day that true love died

When blood and water hit the ground

Walls we couldn’t move came crashing down

We were free and made alive

The day that true love died.

Search your heart you know you can’t deny it

Come on, lose your life just so you can find it.

The father gave his only son

Just to save us

The earth was shaking in the dark

All creation felt the fathers broken heart

Tears we’re filling heavens eyes

The day that true love died

When blood and water hit the ground

Walls we couldn’t move came crashing down

We were free and made alive

The day that true love died

Now Jesus is alive

Jesus is alive

Jesus is alive

Jesus is alive

Jesus is alive

Jesus is alive

He is alive

He rose again

When blood and water hit the ground

Walls we couldn’t ove came crashing down

We were free and made alive

The day that true love died.

Come close listen to the story.

-Phil Wickham-

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So much to do!

March 22, 2008

I won’t have time to blog tomorrow, that’s for sure, so I’m writing this real quick so I can get some sleep before work.

Today me and Kelly went to see Mark & James at the AKA lounge, it was definitely awesome. Me, Kelly, Lizzie, Sara, Amber, and Sara’s sister are going to dinner tomorrow night at Urban Flats in Waterford to see them play. If you wanna join us gimmie a call sometime tomorrow.

But, the coolest thing, is Kelly’s parents aren’t going to thier church Easter because it will be too crowded, so Kelly is coming to C3 afterall, which is awesome beyond words. I have talked it up so much the past… a long time, that it should be interesting to actual have her there to see it firsthand. It’s entirely possible Mark may come too.

Tomorrow I have work 10-5, going to Aloma Baptist for thier Easter production, and then Urban Flats at around 10 for dinner/music. It should be a pretty busy but great day.

:)

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My Best Friend’s Back, hey la!

March 19, 2008

Yeah I’m a dork, whatever.

This is my best friend Kelly:

She got to Florida safely, just 4 days late. I’m very happy about this. I think I laughed harder watching American Idol last night with her than I have in my entire life. Seriously, it was on the verge of injury. (By the way if you DVR the show, go to after Michael Johns sings, right after Randy says “it wasn’t one of your best performances” and watch a little girl turn into a full on demon. Funniest thing ever.)

I’m a very happy person right now because my insane counter part is back for a few days, so I wanted to blog about it.

I think everyone reading this should meet her, she’s ridiculous.

PS – This is us flying home from NYC on JET BLUE. I cannot stress enough that you should fly Jet Blue.

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Finally Coming Home

March 18, 2008

My best friend was supposed to be on a plane home last friday. Due to some ridiculous drama and a pretty stupid roomate, she wasn’t. So, needless to say, her family, me, and her were all extremely frustrated. Her father bought another ticket for today to come home. Oklahoma was apparently having crummy weather today and delayed her flight to dallas. So when she got to dallas her flight to orlando already left. Hooray American Airlines (this is why I only fly Jet Blue). So, she called to tell me that, and I went back to sleep. After I woke up she called again, said the airline was being insane. Basically they put her 5th in line for standby, then 8th, then 15th. They started boarding a flight, and then some drama with thier computers happened and they stopped letting people on. The flight was super delayed, and people that would have missed the flight ahd the plane been on time showed up, and got on in front of her. Needless to say she started crying in the airport. Some family knew her situation and was pleading with the airline to attempt to be helpful, but they weren’t. She hung up because she was starting to cry again talking to me so, I just let her go and prayed for her. She called me back a little while later and said she was sitting on the plane. Apparently she was the last person they let on, and everyone that was on the plane that knew her situation (being stuck waiting for a plane for 4 days) gave her a standing ovation when she boarded. Oh, and then the airline told her to get off, they had over-boarded the plane. And then i don’t know how or why but someone else got the boot and she got to stay.

I feel awful for her, i can’t imagine the emotional rollercoaster that had to have been. She swears she’ll never fly AA again, because they sucked like no other at handling this.

So, she was supposed to be here Friday night.. then she was supposed to be here today at 11:30. Now she’s supposed to be here at 3:30. We’ll see how that works out. Apparently the plane has to wait on the runway for like an hour. She called about n hour ago so I’m hoping she’s in the air by now. But knowing how airlines work, she probably isn’t.

Like I said, fly Jet Blue kiddos. I’ve never been delayed with them, and they give you satelite TV and radio. For rizzle, wouldn’t fly any other airline.

So if all goes well she’ll be here later today, and definitely in time for the Mark & James concert Friday night. :)

Long time to wait to see my best friend, but whatever, I’m glad she’s coming home now.

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My Musique Artist #6: Locksley

March 17, 2008

Kelly called me last night to tell me Rooney and Locksley are going on tour together this summer. So I’ll mention Locksley today.

I saw them at the House of Blues last year, they we’re pretty ridiculous, so I became a fan pretty quickly. They are very Beatles-esque. From thier style to thier sound, it’s obvious they we’re heavily influenced by the Beatles, and they cover “I Saw Her Standing There” a lot. They have a good sound, most people probably wouldn’t guess they are based in Brooklyn.

Aaron Collins, thier bassist left the band just a short while ago, which stinks because brought a ton of energy, I have no clue who will replace him on tour. I reccomend going to one of the shows when they come around with Rooney. Rooney is really good live too, I’ve been able to see them a few times. It will be a good tour, most definitely.

Here’s “Don’t Make Me Wait” by Locksley, it’s a little older, but it’s popular and I can’t find the video for “All Over Again” right this second.

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Ohhhhh airport drama

March 14, 2008

So, my best friend is supposed to be in Florida right now. But, she is in Oklahoma. Which is not helpful, since we are supposed to be in Lakeland tomorrow, and we have a lot of concerts to attend later in the week.

Apparently, her roomate didn’t have gas in her car, so it ran out on the way to the airport. When I heard this I was pretty annoyed, since you probably shouldn’t drive someone to the airport on an empty tank. So, my friend missed her plane, and the airline hasn’t been able to get her on any others yet. They are trying to get her out tomorrow morning, we’re praying about it, but I’m worried.

So that whole situation sucks, for lack of a better term.

Hopefully, she will be here in time to go to Lakeland, and if not, at least be home in time to go to C3. It would be kind of interesting to have people i know from outside church, at church, all the same week. Selda will probably come, Lizzie (friend from work) is coming, and Kelly if she’s in state will be coming. I look forward to it, hopefully it’ll work out.

Oh. Last thing. My bank account currently shows I’m in the red over $100, but I got my check today. So tomorrow I’ll go deposit that and I should be over $200 to the good. So that’s a huge stinkin relief.

Don’t speed kiddos, tickets suck.

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I just finished.

March 13, 2008

I got a little distracted with laundry and stuff, but I managed to finish the book before I have to go get ready for work.

He pointed out the things churches we’re doing right, and things they we’re doing wrong. He made some really good points, a lot of things I totally agree with. And others I don’t. Here are a few.

He talked about clothing, he felt weird because he didn’t feel dressed up enough one morning, and then saw that the people in the church we’re wearing normal Monday-Saturday clothes. “I could understand how people would be more comfortable wearing thier normal, everyday clothes. They could come to church and still be themselves.”

I’m kind of big on that one, I don’t think people should be fake, or put on a show for God, he knows who you are. Come as you are.

He also mentioned the pastor was wearing jeans, and it made him feel a lot more comfortable about what he had on.

He mostly talked about churches reaching out to thier communities. Not focusing on the church, but focusing on everyone around them. Lending a helping hand to those in need, regardless of thier religious affiliation. I agree with it, but he seemed to believe this was the one main redeeming quality of chruches, and I think he missed the point.

Another thing he mentioned was music. He said singing highly repetitive songs was common, and seemed to be enjoyed by most church attenders, but that he also saw a ton of people coming in late, as if to skip that stuff and only be there for the important part, the sermon. He said to avoid lengthy and repetive songs. One of the things he said is too distracting is the amount of time devoted to the music. “A few songs are more than enough to get anyone in the proper mood for church.” I agree. I love the music, but it doesn’t need to go on for an hour. At some churches I’ve been to I start getting bored with it, especially churches that use extremely traditional music. I love the music we have at C3, and I would actually prefer to hear more of it, but I think if I look at it from an outsiders view, more may be considered too much.

As for the pastors, he said “When a pastor is genuinely funny, has a message that is relevant to everyday life, and knows how to get the message across in a powerful way, the church will attract more people who may not otherwise be interested in Christianity.”

Enough said, he’s just plain right in that department.

He mentioned the energy level, and said it comes from the churchgoers, not the building, if people are genuinely excited about being there, it’s contagious.

He mentioned relevance, saying “it’s crucial that you show that the Bible has something current and relevant to say.”, and i agree with him compeltely. The Bible isn’t something that happened once and is just something to read and learn from, it happens today, it is relevant. Churches should show that.

He said a few more things that bothered me a little, more because I think his lack of understanding fueledsome frustration for him. For example, he takes the word lost too literally and gets super offended by it. He also said “What exactly do Christians think they are saving me from?” well, the simple answer is hell. There are more things, but he takes it as an insult. Which is kind of arrogant.

He dislikes rituals, because people doing them probably don’t understand them, or if they do they don’t seem to do them with meaning, and outsiders certainly don’t understand them. I agree with that too, rituals are part of religion, religion doesn’t help anyone. Jesus does, so I’m with him on that one.

He also was bothered by big TV screens with a video of the pastor on it, directly behind the pastor. I’ve seen this at other churches, and it is a bit odd. I never really thoguht about it much, but he didn’t like it at all.

He is big big big about getting churches to have Q&A forums for people to ask open questions, and for them to have people that don’t belieive the same thing, to come in and have discussions or debates. It’s a cool idea, and I like seeing those discussions, but I don’t think a Sunday morning service is the best place for it. But I do agree those discussions need to happen, and be made available to wide audiences.

Last thing that bothered me and I’ll be done with the review, ok well 2 things.

One, is he seemed a bit hypocritical. He kept saying Christians portrayed all atheists wrong, and we think they are all evil and bad and that they are immoral because of a lack of faith. He said he felt unfairly represented. Well, he unfairly grouped Christians as being intollerant, fake, etc. A lot of Chrisitans dofit that mold. but not all of them. he also made a lot of Christians out to be less logical-minded. I’m a very logical/analytical person, and I do actually think about reasoning behind things. So his attitude toward that bothered me a bit.

Lastly, his writing style could be a little distracting. He wrote it a bit like a high school essay, by that i mean he kept doing things like “In chapter 7 I will tell you about this” “On page 72 I talk about this” it was kind of annoying. I’ll see that when I get there. And he seemed to constantly be trying to defend himself. It was a little annoying, but it’s just a preference on writing style I guess.

I still liked the things he critiqued, and I think some churches would ebenfit from hearing his story. He points out a lot of things churches do that turn off non-Christians to the idea of church.

Thankfully, I think C3 does a good job, and the things he complained about, we don’t do, and the things he liked, we have. So that was very cool and reassuring.

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Hemant Mehta’s ‘I Sold My Soul On Ebay”

March 13, 2008

Okay, I hate to be picky, but this is bothering me just a little.

In general it’s a good book, it’s interesting, but I feel so much negativity in it, it just annoys me.

Hemant Mehta is an athiest, who went to some churches. He went initially to hold up his end of the deal with the auction, and went to more to do research for this book. He goes into it all saying he has an open mind, and that if someone can give him good enough evidence, maybe he’ll change his mind about God.

He is writing the book to point out positives and negatives in churches, things that push people away, and things that effectively pull people in. It’s definitely cool to hear his opinions on some of the little things churches do, things I hadn’t seen in that same light.

A lot of what he says I can actually agree with, I wasn’t a Christian until I got to high school, so my perceptions of church we’re mostly negative until I was saved. And things some churches do would make me reluctant to come back. I’m lucky enough to be at a church that I fit in at, and I feel does everything it can to accept people as they are. We talked quite a bit about C3 today at Community Group, so I’m feeling pretty blessed right now. Sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have this community of faith. Anyway, back to the book.

I have a few things that are just bothering me. He says he has done a lot of research, and asked questions, but he poses a lot of questions in the book. I can see them as legitimate questions, but why didn;t he just ask someone at the churches he was at? In some cases he did, and he provided the answers given to him. But he puts up a ton of questions that I’m sure someone could have explained to him. Like “What is the point of so much repetition?” in the music. There are plenty of reasons for that, but he leaves it as a question, leading the reader to think there is no answer and it’s pointless. He does that a lot and I think he could have explored it further if it really bothered him.

I’m only about halfway through the book, I bought it last night, but there we’re some things that made me think in here. One thing he had an issue with was churches reading Bible verses in the sermons. He does later go on to appreciate and like the way Rob Bell does it at Mars Hill, but before that point he isn’t a big fan of hearing the Bible verses that the pastors are pulling from.

“I have heard some Christians say they prefer to attend a church whose pastor makes heavy use of verses from the Bible in his or her sermons. To them, preachers such as Joel Osteen may appear “watered down” due to the fact that he doesn’t mention Bible verses as frequently as other pastors. My response to would be that Osteen’s messages come across more clearly to a wide audience because he limits the quotes from the Bible. His listeners know he’s using the Bible as his reference, so he doesn’t need to remind them every few sentences.”

That bothered me. I understand from his point of view, but as a Christian, if a pastor doesn’t reinforce what is being said with scripture, then it’s easy for them to twist it to thier own view. I don’t mean to say the more verses you recite, the more Godly the service or whatever, I just mean that it’s dangerous to just take what the pastor says without examining it yourself. Personally, I trust my pastor, but I won’t just take what he says and that be the end of it, those verses are a starting point to look at it myself, to get more out of it, and to make my own interpretation, with his help. Just listening to the pastor isn’t enough.

As an example, in high school we read MacBeth (and several other stories and plays ahrd to follow), we sat there and read them. Our teacher didn;t just tell us what was going on, we read it ourselves, he was there to help us understand it, to share what he knew about it to help us understand it ourselves. That’s what  pastor does, to just take his words without the scripture behind it is foolish.

A lot of the things he critiqued we’re actually things that really don’t represent Jesus, they represent religion, tradition, rules, the boring annoying things. The majority of the things he liked and encouraged we’re the things that looked most like Jesus. The passion of the people, true community in the congregation, the pastor being real with the church, and little things like parking attendants helping him out.

I haven’t read all of this yet, so I will probably finish talking about tomorrow when I finish it, but there are just a few other things I wanna pick apart.

I am a bit bothered at him saying he is open minded, and he seems kind of negative and close minded to me.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s very open minded of him to give church a try period, but when he is there he questions everyones motives, and looks at everything negatively rather than positively. His reviews are usually all negative with a hint of “there was this one redeeming quality”. Which is fine, it’s his opinion, but reading it he doesn’t feel open minded. At certain points he even seems to portray Christians as illogical thinkers. Which bug me to no end because I’m an extremely analytical thinker and logical person. This is just how I’m reading it, so I’m probably not taking it the way he intended, but you can’t feel tone when you read. You lose that from spoken to written word.

The cool thing about reading this is really seeing flaws that churches have, whether I agree with his opinion or not, he brings up valid points about things churches do that bother people. each church he describes will remind me a little of a church I’ve been to in the past. So far, none have reminded me of C3, which I’ll take as a good sign. Reading this, as a Chrsitian, he hasn’t gone to a church yet I would have liked very much. I’m seeing some very interesting and different forms of worship reading this. I agree with some of the things he critiqued, he said that at the churches that have these ritualistic things going on, he would feel totally out of place, not knowing when to do each thing. I had the same worries back in middle school visitng a frinds church, I didn’t know thier rituals, so I felt so confused and out of place. Church shouldn’t be about rituals at all. So I agree with that one. There are actually a lot I agree with, the main one I totally disagree with is scripture, I don;t think churches should remove scripture.

Okay, last thing that bugged me, it was technically the first thing that bugged me reading it. He has a beef with Kirk Cameron, and by beef I mean he was on his radio show and he felt Kirk insuted him. Which I suppose happened, if you feel insulted, then you we’re insulted, the persons intent doesn’t change the result. But I also don’t think he was fair to Kirk in the story he told. He complains a lot in the book about pastors only sharing part of stories, or not really giving all the facts about things. I think he did that with Kirk. I know how he functions, I’ve seen how his ministry works. I personally like the guy, he can be intense, but in general I like him. So anyway, he says in the book that they insulted him and made them out to sound really really mean. But I listened to the interview. They lsitened to him, told him he was very mature and big to do it. They we’re polite. I think they we’re actually supportive. Kirk told him about how he grew up an athiest, and tried to witness to him. I think hemant was just bothered because he was directly being ministered to. He can’t be mad at Kirk for that, so him bashing Kirk in the book bothered me. If anything, Hemant came off as a bit defensive. I like something that was said in the interview by the way “You don’t think that the creation screams that there could be a creator” “no”. What? He says he is a logical thinker, but that’s illogical.

I think I just get confused by athiesm, because I am logical, it’s MORE logical to believe in God than not to.

Everyone who is seriously interested in the pursuit of science becomes convinced that a spirit is manifest in the laws of the universe—a spirit vastly superior to man, and one in the face of which our modest powers must feel humble.” – Albert Einstein

“I could prove God statistically; take the human body alone; the chance that all the functions of the individual would just happen, is a statistical monstrosity.” – George Gallup

Two brilliant minds, that admit that intellect points to God.

Anyway, the book is certainly thought-provoking, and I enjoy it, because it’s actually re-inforcing my faith. The things he says to try to shoot down God only make me believe it more. I don’t think his intention was to dis-prove God or anything, he just seems to think the whole idea is stupid. He gives that vibe to me anyway.

Rob Bell wrote the forward in the book, he said he feels Hemant is just after the truth, I totally agree. I just feel he is going about it the wrong way. He seems a little closed off, but I can’t blame him for that. The things he’s writing make me think critically about my life, the way i present myself to people that don’t know Christ. And it’s pretty helpful. I have an atheist friend, it’s helping me understand him, and understand how I need to be to help him, and not just push him further away.

So, anyway, I’ll finish reading it tomorrow before work and try to blog some final thoughts.

**I hope I didn’t sound too negative, I like the book in general.

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40 Days Of Prayer

March 11, 2008

I saw a news story that caught my attention tonight, and generally speaking, I don’t watch the news. It’s too depressing.

Parramore and Pine Hills had 40 Days of Prayer, where local churches held prayers for the communities because of thier high violent crime rates. In Parramore, they went down dramatically. Pine Hills I think is in the early stages of thier 40 days.

It caught my eye for a few reasons, one because it was just a cool thing to do, and two, because I was fairly certain I had seen one of these prayer meetings in my neighborhood the other night. At the end of the story they said Azalea Park (that’s my neighborhood) had just finished our 40 days. I’m assuming they focused on Parramore and Pine Hills in the story because they are more notorious for crime. Though, in reality, my neighborhood is second in violent crime only to Parramore, Pine Hills comes after us. I’m not proud of this, it’s just worth noting.

I was headed up to Lifeway the other night, and there we’re a bunch of people just standing there praying, some with their hands raised, just praying for my little neighborhood. It was a really moving thing to see in person, I felt like pulling in to that Food Lotto and praying with these strangers. I had no idea why but it just seemed so beautiful, seeing these people standing in a Food Lotto parking lot, talking to God. It was awesome. At the time I had no idea why they we’re there, I just knew it was refreshing to see.

The boldest thing about it to me, was that a week before that, on that same street, less than a block away, I passed a much different scene. A scene that involved some sort of SWAT team or special forces unit, I don’t know, but they had huge guns and we’re in black head to toe, surrounding an aprtment. I drove away quickly figuring I was probably not in a good spot. I never heard anything about that incident, but it was scary.

And now I find that we had this group of people praying for 40 days about the crime in our area. It was pretty moving, to see people placing thier faith in God, that he could really turn things around. Hearing that the crime in Parramore went down, by I think they said 17%, was really encouraging, and I’m glad they have this program going on.

It was also somwehat of a wake up call tonight, that I do live in a relatively dangerous area, and that I need to be cautious. I tend to be already, our house feels like a fortress ever since our cars got broken into. We have these insane locks, we basically never use the front door because un-bolting it is a pain.

But I just have gotten so used to the crime that it doesn’t phase me. Sirens late at night, search lights from helicopters, and the ever popular reverse 911 calls are just something that I deal with. I’m only reminded they aren’t normal when I have friends over that then start to panic.

It’s sad, but things like 40 Days Of Prayer give me hope that one day this area can be beautiful, and free of violent crime.